Temperature Check

July 16, 2009

I feel like it’s been a long time since I’ve just updated you guys on how Life In General has been. I mean, sure you want to know the major epic stories about Burning Man, about the feelings of gratitude, etc, etc, but really,what about the daily triumphs? The failures? The snit fits? Where’s the pulp, am I right? Admit it, you’ve been chomping at the bit for a good yakk session from Promise, haven’t you? *raises eyebrow*

So here’s the dish, folks.

For the most part, life has been pretty good. It’s been a bit weird, let me tell you, but I’m dating again. My last significant relationship ended almost a year ago September (gulp) and it’s been sort of hard to open up and trust again. I’ve definitely pinged when I might’ve ponged, and realizing that and dealing with it has been a challenge. I’ve gone on several first online-never-met-you before dates, and while some of them have been fun, they can also make me work my *ass* off, if I have to keep up all the conversation. Which is often. It’s annoying. So what that I am the charming one, pony up, gentlemen. It gets tiring, let me tell you.

It has been pretty illuminating, actually. The way people are into me, the way I’m into them. The whole method my sense/beliefs have developed about attraction, trust, risk-taking, evaluating, and learning about others has TOTALLY shifted from the way it has been in the past. Maybe I’m exactly like every other 34 year old single professional, devastating beautiful, intelligent, sassy, capable and emotionally clear headed woman who wants to adopt children, but it’s bizarre seeing what I CARE about versus what I used to care about, even, say 4 years ago. 30 feels so far away. Maybe it’s because 35 is so close now..

So this leads me to the New People Campaign. In a certain sense, I went through a weird shift this year. I’ve been jonesing for meeting new people this year, and putting myself into environments in which that can happen. My Burning Man experience this year will very much be a part of this. I intend to immerse myself into the fabric of the City, instead of sheltering in the comfort of my friends and their camps. I will certainly visit my friends and their respective art, but am more interested in seeing NEW art, NEW installations, and volunteering my time as a Citizen of the City. So look for me, but don’t expect to catch me for long. Unless, of course, I’ve brought the hookah. ;P

Another thing that is new is my life is nutrition and weight loss. I’ve not been talking about it here at all, and I’ve really, really, really, really really wanted to. Trust me, I think about sharing it with you guys all the time, but the fact is, it just isn’t Time yet. I Promise (*gasp-she made one!)to open up more about this in the near future, but I wanted you to know that a fundamental shift has gone on since January, and it’s affecting my physical, emotional, and spiritual body in a profound way. I’m re-learning an alphabet, so to speak, and seeing as it’s one of the first ones I learned, so I will definitely be sharing with you on this topic soon.

Yet another thing that has been New is the Macbook. It’s shiny, it’s fast, it’s helpful, and most of all, it’s brought a sense of focus and efficiency to my life that I had no idea was lacking. It’s a breath of fresh air, and it’s now really exciting to sit at my desk. You try and accomplish THAT! FingerSnap*

And just when you thought I was done, there’s this thing here- I’ve been re orging my time from BM events to focusing on the business plan and stepping deeper into research on adopting children. I cannot express how unbelievably scary it is to be stepping into this as a single woman, but I NEED to get started, so I have. I’m officially putting the word OUT-if you have adopted a child, know someone who has, or fostered, or been adopted, I want to talk to them. If they are out of state, I want to talk to them. If they were adopted openly or semi-openly, I want to talk to them. Please, help me out. There could be pie in your future*.

I’ve also been getting ready for pumpkin pie (note reference * above) season. The blog wasn’t live in the Fall of last year, but your dear ol Promise makes 30 pumpkin pies every Fall! Just gives them away. It’s fun for me, it makes the house smell AMAZ-ING! and it’s such a joy, seeing faces light up. I’ve got a recipe now that’s trimmed down the heaviest stuff, and made it really fluffy and flavorful. In the 15 years of making these every Fall, I get good reviews. ;P I will post the recipe in a post closer to September.

My job is still not a place of encouragement and satisfaction, but that will hopefully change at some point.

My cat is doing well, here she is-

And a caterpillar that was living on a passionvine in my house went through chrysalis, and finally came out a GORGEOUS gulf frittilary butterfly, and here he/she is–