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May 21, 2009

I feel like I haven’t been here for a long, long time. I attribute this sensation to the secrets I’ve been holding onto, which I’m about to spill all over the place right now. Not so much as secret, as…selective information. Yeah…yeah, Vinnie, that’s the ticket!

So let’s start with nutrition. Some of you may already know that I made a pretty significant change to my nutritional focus at the end of January. January 28th, to be specific. It was a big deal, which is why I remember the date. What was the big deal? It was occupying two conflicting spaces in my heart=one, that I love my perfect, luminous, strong, healthy, young, capable body exactly the way it is, and two, that I needed to lose weight despite saying all of that. So, I joined a program. I also decided that when I joined I wasn’t telling anyone what I was doing, except a small handful of girlfriends who didn’t know each other. I didn’t want to hear,

“Are you losing weight?”

*sympathetic look, while glancing up and down my body* “So how is it going?”

“Are you sure you want to eat that?”

“Aren’t you supposed to be _________?”

“You look fine!”

“So how much weight have you lost?”

And for the most part, it’s been really, really cool. I’ve gone through a few rebellions, where I don’t CARE and I don’t WANNA do this anymore (been going through one right now), but honestly, paying attention to food, caring about my movements, energy, and body, have all been a truly positive and self-empowering process. I had no idea it would TAKE so long, and it still feels like I’m far from my goal, but I feel super confident about what I’m doing. I know I’m not divulging everything, but that’s okay. You can deal.A little mystery is good for the soul. ;P

Other than nutrition? I’ve been re-orging my time quite a bit. If my time were a pie chart, I would say that I use to spend approx 80% of my free time on Burning Man themed events. I don’t like this ratio anymore, as I’ve got some big dreams that need attending to, and are going to need more time for research and implementation. So I’ve been breaking my pie into smaller chunks. (She said PIE!!)Here’s how things are going to be now–

30% Burner events

30% Business plan related/adoption research related

20% Dating/meeting new people/new activities and hobbies

10% Down time for Me

10% Misc/Finances/helping people move/Travel/Volunteering/Eckcetera!

I know that I have a lot of friends who will support me in both of these new ventures. And the support and love I get from MyLittlePail (MLP) has been awesome too. Seriously. It’s only been 5 months at blogging, but it’s already because an integral part of my life!

The last item that was taking a HUGE amount of my life up until May 11th or so was Work. Some of you may know that my workplace had become extremely stressful and tense, some of you don’t know this at all. I can’t really speak of it freely here, as once it’s on the internet, it’s Forever, but I have really, really, wanted to tell all of you about it. So if you feel like I’ve been holding something back, I have been. and it has sucked. Not the point of a blog, holding back, let me TELL you! *handclap*

What I can tell you, is that though there’s been some respite, the road is far from over. I am still walking this trail, yep. So send your good juju and prayers to little Ms. Promise in the Bay Area hills, she could use a little boost, spirit-wise.

I hope everyone has a safe and memorable Memorial Day. I’ll be the one on the porch, in a camp chair, with a lemonade, smoking my hookah, listening to Madeline Peyroux.